You Are Noticed

Looking for freedom. Looking everywhere.

It seems so hard to find harder than it used to be.

The problem is I know who freedom is,

but for some reason I still feel lost I still feel some numbness.

 

Things just don’t or just won’t work out. 

I pray and pray so hard for the Lord to help me out. 

 

I realize surrender is what I need to do,

but often feels like even when I do I still seem to loose. 

 

I’ll feel relief, but only for a moment.

Give it a few days and I’m right back to feeling numb. 

 

Constantly pulling myself up or pushing myself through,

When oh Lord will things change?

When will I see you come through?

 

I’m tired. I’m just so tired of sorrow.

This rollercoster ride of emotions

have left me questioning every tomorrow. 

 

My thoughts are everywhere never staying still.

Lord I don’t know what to do I don’t know how to heal. 

 

Jesus, please tell me this ends soon 

My heart can’t take much more dread and gloom. 

 

I just ache to be happy.

I ache to feel free and smile like the girl I used to be. 

 

I miss the girl I used to be. The girl who always wore a smile. Bubbly, happy, and positive was who I used to be known for.

Now I’m not so sure for the years have changed my colors.

 

Once pink, purple and a bright lime green, now I’d say I’m more blue, trying to be bright and yellowie. 

 

I never thought I'd be this old still looking still searching.

I never thought it take this long for you to simply bring a husband. 

 

Lonely, frustrated and just all confused.

I pray Lord please come through for me.

Please be my rescue. 

 

I know you have a plan because I know you are good.

Just please help me understand it.

Please help me have courage to purse it. 

 

I believe you’re good although I still hurt.

Jesus, why do you still allow my heart to burn? 

 

You showed me your able to do more says Ephesians 3

But God my heart is still in a state of bleeding. 

 

Where do I go from here? What do I do?

Please help my heart, soul, and mind still fully trust you. 

 

I will lean on your love as best I can.

In the meantime, Lord Jesus please hold my hand. 

 

Lead me beside green pastures and still waters

For I know there I’ll feel arms wrapped around my heart.

The arms of my loving savior. 

 

You never move.

You never grow weary.

Jesus my heart has been through it.

I’ve been living in a state of unsteady. 

 

Please hold on to me and don’t let me go

because God I don’t know how much longer I can go… 

 

Speak to my heart and forgive me when it’s hard to hear.

I need to see your hand moving somehow in some way here. 

 

My heart is bruised and it’s hard to know who to trust.

So Lord once again I’ll declare in you only in you will I trust. 

 

I shall not trust the sweetest frame but only Jesus Christ Name. Please Lord help my heart be free.

Free to be loved and free to love only you. 

 

You are good and you do good. 

You are gentle and lowly in heart. 

You care more for me then I’ll ever know 

your thoughts towards me out weight the grains of sand. 

You created me, you knew me and you know me now.

There is no love greater none as profound! 

 

Created for a purpose created to worship you. Lord I will declare in this moment that I will STILL have faith in You. 

 

You are the beginning and the end.

You are a God of abundance.

You bring peace, love and freedom

And just because of your kindness

I am constantly swimming in grace. 

 

Thank you, Lord thank you for working ahead and going before me. Before I even see it I say thank you. Thank you for going before your daughter and reminding her she can always trust the hand of her loving Father. 

 

Thank you, Lord for going before and for carrying me through.

For You Lord will always provide as long as I keep my eyes on you. 

 

Amen